February 2011
44 posts
i have never wanted to cut so deep in my life.
in the last few weeks, a lot has happened to me.
and all these experiances have made me feel a hate towards people that are happy in love, and people that have close people always there for them.
i have found that i am never going to be happy with what i have, because the true fact is i have been told i am ugly, i scratch myself because i am ugly and no one wants an ugly scared person lying next...
I truly hate being single. At the moment my mum is on a date, my dad is in a steady relationship, my older brother is in a long term relationship, my younger brother has girls after him left right and center and my younger sister is a slut. Then there is me, never been in a real relationship. I am over it and I really hate it.
someone should make me feel alive because lately...
It is only 11:20 and today is already fuck balls.
- I wake up for the second day in a row with gastro.
- the mother yells at me and thinks I am faking it all
- my dad TEXTS me have a go at me about my life and how I should live it, with his assumption that I am going to fuck everything up.
- I call my mum in a huge rage about my dad and she starts crying (worst feeling)
- then I has to call my...
tonight i am sleeping with my window open in the...
this pain is to much, going to drink myself to...
sick of feeling so god damn lonely
FUCK THIS LIFE ..... i just want to die.
i want to get so stoned that all i can do is cry, then get angry and punch the walls until they fall, punch myself harder and harder with ever hit until there is no more.
i just want to feeel something but nothing is worth feeling if it is just the end and makes you feel like a piece of shit.
i hate who i am i hate who i was and i hate who i will be. the best thing would be for you to kill me.
